Being Spontaneous without being stupid!

Yes, I'm still in the land of the living in case you were wondering. Wow, how did I allow a month to go by without writing? I didn't realize it had been this long. :-( The truth is, I've been going through a dry spell...like none other. And I woke up one morning, pulled myself up & sat on the edge of my bed and said to myself, "I need some spontaneity in my life!" I don't really know where this came from. I had to get up & go look the word up myself.

When I looked it up I was disappointed because I realized that spontaneity could be dangerous...if you use it the wrong way & for the wrong reasons. People ofttimes like to use the word "spontaneous" to cover up their impulsive, reckless behavior. That's not what I really wanted...especially as a Christian. ;-) But the ability to just get up and go, the excitement of having a thought and carrying it out with no reservation or 2nd guessing is what I was thinking of. This would be way out the box for me because I 2nd guess everything! It keeps me out of trouble sometimes, but other times it drives me nuts!

So I had to ask myself, "How can I add a touch of spontaneity to my life without being stupid?" People who are not use to being spontaneous tend to go overboard when they try to be. I thought being analytical was a great trait of mine. The older I get though I notice it tends to put a damper on new, exciting ideas and desires because by the time I analyze it thoroughly, the excitement is gone.

Anyhow, this is the battle I've been having for the past month since I've last updated my blog. And instead of just quickly resolving my stupor, I chose rather to mope around and feel sorry for myself and didn't do anything much but go to work, go home, take a nap, eat, and go to church as I regularly do. What I learned is that I have to appreciate being a cautious person; however, when your body starts telling you it needs a break for renewal, revival, and refreshing...it's a good idea to listen. But maintain a level of control and maturity in how much lee-way you allow yourself to have...especially if you're not used to splurging. Then it may be too much fun to you & you lose the discipline you had about yourself.

Well, I'm just blogging my thoughts before I burst because it's been too long. This may make a lot of sense to some & none to others. It's okay. At the end of the day, I really just wanted to let you know I'm still alive & well. Hello & good night!

L8r:
~faithful