When hurt heals it is, in its miraculous form, one of the best feelings in the world. But you'd never know it remaining on the hurtful side. On that side all you feel is the pain, the weight, the unforgiveness, and even the shame because you want to forgive, but don't have the power in your will yet. A conscious, courageous decision must be made within yourself that "I am going to step out of this hurt." Hurt is not always healed with time, like most of us were taught. What time does is just push the hurt back where it is hidden and does't resurface until the most inopportune times: when it's time to love again, when it's time to interact with someone again, when it's time to trust again, believe someone again. It shows its tainted face again at these times.
Some of us have become so comfortable and stubborn on the hurtful side. We've built our fortresses and walls to protect ourselves. We've crafted our weapons of solitude and abrasiveness. We go on ignoring what lies beneath, experiencing life but not really living because we won't move from the hurtful side. I am now experiecing life from the other side. I was afraid. I was reluctant. I was stubborn to try, just like some of you. But I've experienced a miracle that I would have otherwise missed out on. I packed my bags in anticipation that I was about to move from that land to a new one. I am finally living now. The hurtful side, because you spent so much time there, will come back in your mind asking why you left. Will you ever come back? You're not familiar with your new turf yet, but very familiar with the hurtful side. You knew how to protect yourself there. You'll almost feel out-of-place on the other side for fear of the unknown. But keep walking... You'll look back and the hurtful side will become just a tiny spec of space. The further you move away from it, the more it disappears.
One of the main hurts I experienced in my life, I made the conscious decision not to be hurt anymore because it was stopping my growth. With that decision, I made conscious efforts to do the things my hurt would not allow me to do to get past it. Until, I looked up one day...and I was past it! But not only was I past it...my efforts helped turn that person's life around. I am left amazed at how God does so much more than we even anticipate when we choose to step out on faith. Faith is dangerous, but it is worth the risk!
L8r:
~faithful
1 comment:
You know what leaving the "Hurtful side" going to a "new" place feels like? I imagine it being like base jumping. I'm sure you already know but Base jumping is when you literally 'leap' of something sturdy and solid like the edge of a mountain or the top of a building. I've never done it but I could just imagine my body going through a sanity check before my first few jumps... "fool, you know you are about to leave something perfectly sturdy for a feat that you don't HAVE to perform!" or "You know if your chute doesn't deploy and you die... you deserve it!"; but once I get past that and move forward I know I will experience something truly wonderful and blissful that I could have never ever experienced if I hadn't jumped otherwise:)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WCD0TExFBg8
Post a Comment