The ego trip

Agree to disagree if you must, but I'm not too fond of the reality that some men take the "created in God's image" thing as a reason to ego trip. Disguised as a virtue of confidence in one's self, only really what it's doing is putting a stumbling block in front of your own feet. How so, Faithe? Let's take the time to listen and observe ourselves sometimes. Am I spitting out what I want people to recognize me as, knowing the very things I profess confidence in I fail at? Am I telling people to believe and be confident in something in me that I haven't even owned nor come up to yet? How many opportunities have we had to direct people's focus and appreciation of us back to God who is the one sphere heading what we're trying to come into, rather than take the lead ourselves and give people the impression that we "got this" under control. I am so tired of pride I could scream. I'm so tired of people trying to spit a pitch like this is a marketing project. This is real life. This is our futures on the line. Why do we wear false skin and ask people to accept it and believe it works and it doesn't? Tell me the truth. Don't give me a false hope. If I'm going to love and respect who you are, let me love and respect the truth, not a false pretension. Because, God forbid, if you or I fall on the plateau of what we had others believing we were, we have all those people's hearts in our hands to handle and explain how we lied and made them believe we were someone we wasn't or had something we didn't. I know that God puts greatness on the inside of us and great gifts and callings which are without repentance. But there's a thin line between confidence and pride....both spiritual and natural. Don't cover up weaknesses with pride. Because if we fall, other people's hearts are not so broken for the reason of being sold a lie. I'm sorry. I'm just really tired of people not being real with me...not being truthful about who they really are...selling me a pitch...trying to make me believe in a strength they don't possess because the fruit of that strength is not there. I realize that I am nothing...absolutely nothing without God. And even with Him, I am humbled by knowing that in my flesh dwells no good thing and that if it wasn't for His keeping power, I'd fail at even serving Him. And we all have this same testimony until we come into the fullness of our walk with Him. Therefore, I don't have anything to sell or pitch to anybody. And even the greatest attributes, qualities, and assets I do possess (spiritually, financially, emotionally, physically, etc) are all a blessing from God and have yet to be refined...why boast when there's so many other things I have yet to accomplish or so many other things I have yet to come up to? So you can keep your egos...that don't mean nothing at all to me. I'd rather love a person for who they are, weaknesses and all, rather than love a false hope given to me. That's how the secular world works. They sell their appearance, they sell what they have accomplished financially to get what they want. Let me hope in God who is the one bringing us into the place He's calling us to rather. At least I know that He is not like man, and He can not lie. Why we gotta lie to kick it over here???

Disgruntled,
mspinky